My Poems

Stupid Girl

Living is not as great as it's made up to be.
Not when you're cold, alone, and there's nothing to see.
Making yourself feel whole,
On your life he's taken a toll.
Finding someone is great,
But you don't care b/c of your hate.
You're so caught up in a dream
And keep saying nothings as good as it seems,
But you never realized what's in front of your face.
You keep saying it's blood you wanna taste.
Stupid girl, you've got it good.
Open your eyes, you should.
Eveythings the way it should be.
So what's up with all the stupid pleas?
Be real you got it better than you think.
So just stop to blink.

Open Your Eyes

People always say you'll know.
The point will come when the Lord himself will show.
Child at him you seem so mad.
But, it's not the Lord that's made you so sad.
You say you wish you could tell
Who has put you through all this hell.
Child, open your eyes.
It's the devil that tells these lies.
Why do you pretend you don't feel God there?
What, you think when it's over your life he'll just spare?
He will not wait,
For you have to determine your fate.
So don't let this life pass you by,
For when the day comes, into the heavens you shall fly.

Trust

I wanna trust you.
So what must I do?
Tell you about my life
Or why my parents don't want me with a knife?
Alright I will,
But you must not leave me b/c once I tell you, you wont know how I'll feel.
During my childhood I was abused by my grandpa and dad,
I was a little kid, I wasn't sure if I should I sad or mad.
My parents got divorced.
Out of the house, me and my brother we forced.
I loved and trusted my grandpa until he went and sinned.
I don't think he gets how I'll never trust again.
About the knife deal,
You should see my arm and then you'll know how I feel.
No I'm not crazy, not even the least bit insane.
So what causes my pain?
My memories, they haunt my mind.
My true self nobody can find.
Yet you are diffrent I think.
Just please don't disappear if I blink

My Friend

My life always seemed so dim,
Just b/c of them.
I never thought it could get better.
I had started to write my suicide letter.
I wanted to feel the pain,
Of when I'd cut my vein.
I never thought anyone cared.
I was just so scared.
Tomorrow was the day.
I would finally go away.
I went to school that day,
Ready to go ahead and pay.
I saw everyone walking down the hall.
Yet one girl was against the wall.
She wasn't the same,
Like the others that were lame.
She seemed like me.
So I had to go up and see.
She soon became my friend,
And helped me to mend.
Till this day,
I shall say,
As I sit here and sigh,
She is the reason I didn't die.

Loves Not The Same

At night my tears I hide.
In no one can I confide.
I think about all the lies you've led.
I think about everything you've done and said.
You always loved me in my dreams.
But they're not as real as they seem.
I've ask you to make up your mind.
So then true love I can find.
Everything we've lost,
Just to pay a cost.
Loves turned into a game.
Since I've been with you, it'll never be the same.